iN SCH00L TR0UBLE :)

well, i don't have alot of time to write, i'm at school right now in my advisory class waiting to go to lunch. Michael is at my house waiting on me and i can't wait to get there :) Well, anyways i'm getting in a fight after school with this girl that is SO deteremined she can kick my ass, so i'm going to give her a taste of DESSIE <3 and i'm going to see if she can hanggg. And then michael is fighting her older brother WOAH! [ drama ].

i've had too much experience with fighting and martial arts, i mean i don't think i'm the shit but i really truely hate it when girls think they're hard and think they can WHOOP everyone; especially me. I'm a 2nd degree black belt and i'm training for the female MMA.

SO BRING IT BITCH MADE NIGGA; I'M READY FOR YOUR ASS.

I'm going to restrain myself from being so hard on her, cause she is smaller than me by the weight but, i'm going to let her have a good ass whoopping :) I CAN'T WAIT. It's 11:46AM and i gotta wait until 2:15PM. Ugh, can life be any slower, well i'm going to get outta here before my nosey ass teachers see what the hell i'm up to; i'll update when i get home and see if this girl forreal going to come get some or chicken out. <3

-- Desirae Willis <3

A LiTTLE AB0UT MY L0VE. <3

Alright, me sitting here and explaining me and michael relationship is going to be tough, because there is love & passion there but...it's been 10 months since we were OFFICALLY together. And this situation is tough for me alone. Because Michael is the first person i've been with that has not physically & sexually abused me. When i was 13 i got molested by someone really close in my family [ i rather not get into it ] but anyways. Me and Michael are still semi-dating..i don't know if it makes sense to you, but my relationship is really confusing. I met Michael when i was 14 and he was 16; [ i'm 17; he's 19 ]. We were just friends in the beginning, but something attracted me and michael to one another; to this day we still don't exactly know how we kicked it off [ he says cause we really liked eachother ]. This is the order it went; FRIENDS ,FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS, BECAME INIMATE WITH ONE ANOTHER, THEN HE ASKED ME OUT . There is not a day in my life i regret loving Michael.

August 16, 2007-May 21, 2009

i think one day i'll be lucky enough to get him back because we both still love eachother dearly, if you seen us together you would think we're a normal couple but we're not. I'm broken because he isn't mine. I believe he'll come back to me; soon enough. I love you Michael Jerome <3

HE HATE'S THIS SONG; BUT I LOVE IT CAUSE IT'S THE SONG I USED TO PLAY WHEN I FIRST FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM

DONDRiA & BROADWAY. <3 FUCK HATERSS.

dondria and broadway are such an inspiration to me, because my life long dream is to be a prefessional singer. but i mean i have to be 100 i'm terrified of being judged by my voice....

which brings me to my next topic:

FUCKING HATERS :)

i hope alot of people can relate to this song because we all have haters, i have alot of drama in my life, especially with Michael and girls being on my niggas dick. I TRUELY HATE FEMALES. but some are considerable.

 -- Dessssssirae <3

SHE'S iN Ahh BETTER PLACE. <3

Well, today was my grandmother's funeral. I woke up @ like 8:30 this morning. My grandmother pasted away December 29th, 2009 @ 2:04AM. I got a call from my little cousin Mazilia says that she pasted away because i was @ Michael's (ex boyfriend of 4 years), and she was @ my grandmother's.

Well, this morning when we got to the service, i walked up the aisle and looked @ my grandmother, i didn't shead a tear; @ least not @ moment.  I touch her hand, it was soo cold; like the warm-hearted grandmother i once knew was gone but peaceful? How, how can you be peaceful and be cold; lifeless? WEll, the service went along and let me tell you that church was PACKED. People singed some songs for my grandmother, then the preacher; PREACHED. I cried so much in between 11-12 :) By the end of the service before we went to the cemetary i got SAVED; i asked God to forgive me for all my sins. because i WAS A SINNER. but now i'm saved :) <3

at the end of the service i rubbed my grandmother's hand and kissed her forehead and told her i love her, hopefully she just looks over me and helps me throughout my life. i love you grandma Celste Irene Willis Young <3

September 24 1938-December 29 2009

this is for you :)

my grandmother loved Prince so much, so i deadicate this song to her.